Belated updates…

It’s been awhile since I dropped in here. I suppose that’s how life is these days. We get busy and forget about little blogs like this. We probably spend more time tweeting and updating Facebook that we forget about what life was like before the micro-updating.

Since the last update, I’ve participated in three MS Walks. They mean everything to me and I was happy to be a part of it. Yes, it was warm but I was prepared with ice packs and water bottles. If it is one thing that MS does not do well with–it’s heat! And let’s be honest, the desert in April is anything but cool.

I can’t say that the last four years have been perfect. I’ve had my ups and downs. I still manage to keep a bright outlook about things. Awhile ago, I admitted that I was depressed (that was a huge thing to admit for me). I also was able to talk to others about something they don’t tell you when you are diagnosed. Anxiety. I know, you’re thinking, well, that’s something everyone has at some point. I guess it is like that these days. Personally, I haven’t had a good night’s sleep since November 8, 2016. As I’m sure others feel the same way. I won’t get political on you.

But it isn’t all bad. I met someone and yes, found out it is possible to find love when you have MS. This was something I struggled with when I was first diagnosed. I remember crying in the neurologist’s office and asking who would want a girl with an expiration date. The truth is, someone that is strong, loving, and kind. He’s one of the good ones. I’m incredibly lucky to have met him.

I make promises all the time that I will not forget to update. However, life does happen. Maybe I should say I am looking forward to updating soon…



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One last treat before Fall…

You have to admit this looks like everything you didn’t know you wanted but needed.


Chocolate Covered Brownie Ice Cream Bars

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“I swear I didn’t forget your birthday!”

good morning

Abronia House

Summer is here. I know what you’re thinking – of course it is! The weather in the desert has been interesting because it hasn’t really hit the 100+ temperatures that we would see normally at this time…well, it seems that June is politely moving out of the way for July to come roaring in like a lion.

Things have slowed down here, I’m currently in edits for my latest story, All of the Lights. It’s still in the same footballer series that I’ve been writing for the last year. I find that the genre change has helped quite a bit. I see that people are gravitating to that style of writing (I know we’re all in a vampire coma and everyone is saying “no more!”). The vampire stories will come back one day but for now I’m having fun with the series that I’m working on. It’s been nice to see the differences.

I like to say that there really isn’t anything going on here but that’s not the entire truth – so much is happening (I’ve started submitting content instead of waiting for prompts or claiming story ideas). I posted over on Yahoo Voices my Multiple Sclerosis experience. It was good to share my story with others on a larger network because it is still something that most people do not know about. I really enjoy sharing my story and have met quite a few people along the way that have thanked me.

And before I leave you…today is my sister’s birthday. Michelle is very important to me and I always looked up to her when I was growing up. Even when she did things that did not make us happy…I loved her unconditionally. I haven’t seen her in awhile and was sad that I did not see her at Christmas when I was in Texas. Hopefully, we can meet up later this summer. My sister and I have tons of inside jokes. She can bring up a moment that happened when I was five and the memory is still fresh…I just love her. Happy Birthday, Michelle! Love, Chicky.

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It’s a gift, really




I like to think of the good weeks as just that…gifts. I spent most of last year walking through a fog, unsure really what was going on with me. My vision was limited (bright days still cause problems – summer is proving to be a challenge) and I was blocked with depression.

But, I knew that the only person that could change these things was me. I still have moments where I catch myself thinking about days past. I do remind myself that this could have been with me a lot longer and the diagnosis was the reality check. That headache, blurred vision or clumsiness – it was my body giving me a warning. Less time in the Cinderella office and more time above ground should have been something that I looked into but the could have’s would not change anything.

So, where am I now? Well, I’m still hear writing for as long as I can. Do I have a fear that there is a limited time to share the stories I still want to share? Sure, but then again I’m aware of all the things out there and programs that exist to help me continue on. Going to Braille showed me that my love for writing didn’t need to end. I still have a voice but I communicate it a different way now. My third book, Cured, was done with really one eye working and the other still recovering from Optic Neuritis.

I will say that I do feel as if sometimes people look at me like “she doesn’t look ill, she looks like the picture of health.” Maybe I do look healthy but you haven’t been around at 3am. I’ve learned to live with my MS…I’m fourteen months into this and I’ve already shown it that it will not defeat me. I don’t see it as the elephant in the room but a waiting tiger and I’m the one taming it.


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let’s celebrate!

I have a new neurologist…but I won’t see him until June 26th! Hooray! Progress! Not really…but I don’t care. I finally have a new neurologist…let’s dance!


Also, my love/crush for Nikolaj Coster-Waldau is out of control. Sorry…not really. I’m sure it will cool for like a hot minute when my favorite show returns (yes, I will still watch True Blood but mostly for Alexander Skarsgard)…see? I’m obviously meant for some super tall Viking or like just a normal guy from some middle of the nation place like Iowa…

In the meantime, I’m still not taking any modifying medication for my MS…I still feel tired about 77% of the time and the headaches never really go away. Tonight is the last meeting for the support group since everyone is leaving for the summer. The desert isn’t really the place for those that are heat sensitive…oh look, I’m here another summer *sigh* I know…dumb move to sign a year lease but I’m thinking if it gets bad enough – I will just head north and hope a kind soul allows me to visit for a month…or three 🙂

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Orange Tres Leches Layer Cake

Recipe here!


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omg date night

repost from here 

it was fun. I never do anything out of the ordinary and this was one of those nights. we were supposed to just go for coffee but then! we got to talking and talking led to more talking. finally, we took off and he wanted to show off the place he is a co-owner of. it’s like fancy golf cars for super wealthy people – he was talking about some country singer that had ordered a custom one for hunting. I just nodded and said that I didn’t even know it was something people were interested in.

we ended up catching up and then I looked at the time…it was nearly 2am! where did the time go? I came home but not before giving him a hug. it sounds dumb to keep saying that he really hasn’t changed all that much and he’s still the guy I knew in high school.

this whole week has been strange but I feel like something in the universe finally aligned because I had to get closure for one ex to be able to make room for a possible new guy?? I just know that I like spending time with him.

he doesn’t know about my MS. it isn’t something that I’m going to shout from the rooftops because I don’t want him running away just yet. I just found him and we’re just getting to know each other. I’ll share it later…when the time is right.

update: so, he did actually find out about my MS through this very here blog and well, I’m not exactly super stealth about it. I mean, it isn’t some huge secret and everyone really knows about it. He’s cool with it and I’m cool with the fact he isn’t hitting the road anytime soon. I like that we have these long talks about nothing and everything. And I really missed talking to someone that wasn’t a chihuahua or my laptop or just the empty space in my house. good times.

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